haa. lately very tired. went hospital to visit my grandpa.

sometimes its really pains the heart. although yuu can say tt men are not supposed to be bothered by sadness but it really does.

actually tot nothing of it. but when i see my cousin de blog. hai. memories are like lightning, flashed through my vision. last time whenver i call out ah gong. he will answer. but now things arent the same

i really really feel like beating up tt nurse hu caused this. all cos she forget to feed my ah gong med. is she being punished or not i rrally dunno. but i really hope to punish her on my own. does my grandpa deserve this.

i know he's in great pain. but he's uncommunicable. he couldnt talk.

now.he's in hospital. wad i can do is go down visit him and help in wadever way i can help. i brush his chest and hold on to his hand. i know he like this. cos when i walk away. he wouldlike try to call me back. but i guess he mistook me as his eldest grandson ba. i know wadever i say is useless cos he's jus my maternal grandpa.

but i juz hope tt everyone would just try and take care of him. durn regret when yuu durn have this chance anymore.

then i can see how much my grandma loves him. despite her disability to walk. she still want to go and visit him. but everyone is like stopping. y is this. if i have a car. i would definitely drive her.

hai to end off. i really envy thise who still have their paternal grandpa with them. i really for a very long time nvr calledd out ah gong le.