It was 5 days after my A level, and i'm rotting at home. many asked me:" finding job?" i replied: no. then i bet they will be thinking: erm, no, wa so slack. at times, i prefer to remain silent rather then elaborate, sometimes i feel that there's no need to explain for myself, cos i know that for everything i've done, i have a reason, and i don have to tell everyone why i do this. must i like: hey i eat cos i'm hungry, i drink cos i'm thirsty.

well, i feel that after 18 years i've grown ba, not tt gullible, will not take everything for what it is, most importantly, i've learnt to wear a pair of specs before talking to people, cos yuu noe not everyone is the same, there are hyprocrites who likes to act as a stupid clown and perform stupid stunts behind yuu, and those who backstab at people and those who make use of our trust and later treat it s though yuu dunno and continue their way.

i dunno, i feel tt i' not as open as before, there will sure be a gap between me and the rest, cos i durn trust people tt much now after so much has happened. tt's why i say sometimes silent is the best way to deal with things. durn force me to talk, cos i will do so when i feel tt there's a need.